I was starting my job as a tutor officially on 22nd of Oct, 2009. If i am reaching the date of 22nd Oct , 2011, means I m officially served ptpl for 2 years.
And now, seeing how my friends and utpianz ex-classmate progress, i feel a bit jealous (positive one) and saying, "how lucky they are.. they can be what they really wanna be.."
And now, im starting to think bout my future career path.. Academic field wasnt my first priority . I was planning beforehand to continue my master oversea, but since things getting complicated, I dont think I can further my studies for the time being. In fact, I deferred my master for 1 year last year, hoping that i can go for this year, to be exact on September, but then, things really2 getting complicated, apart from financial problem. It's so hard to be selfish, but i wonder how could such person exist in this world. Exactly, the world is cruel to me. Im feeling so so so so upset regarding this matter. So, for now, bye bye Master of Control System (Eng) , bye bye University of Sheffield, bye bye UK. :(( till we meet again, i really hope real soon.
Another thing was, I am really2 determined to be an engineer. Teaching wasnt for me. I wasnt saying teaching is bad, in fact, im being thankful to ptpl for accepting me for work. There's a pro and cons. The pros is that,
if i dont be an engineer,
- I wont meet my lovely and annoying little kids (my mentees & students)
- I wont be able to explore Sabah and managed activities
- I wont be able to understand how academic works
- I wont be able to help and take care of my fams in kk
but if i dont be a tutor,
- i would be a successfull engineer (insyaALLAH)
- i would be able to explore oversea and facing challenging working environment
- i no need to achieve the %F for my KPI (work indicator)
- i would be able to earn more , and give more
- i would be able to help my sister in Malacca with her fees
But then, who am i to fight His will. When im starting for job hunt, my friends keep on saying, " dont stop looking ! dont give up. different people has different luck. " and lots2 more.
And recently, my uncle said, just tried for once, looking up in the website, and dont stop trying !
And, again, im crossing all my fingers, hoping and wishing my luck will come around this time. Dear God, do grant my prayer. Amin.
Till then, my will : I have to be an Engineer ! and I will try not to stop looking ! AMIN AMIN AMIN ya RABBIL ALAMIN.
