Encouraging Word For MeSelf

a strong person is not one who doesn't cry.
a strong person is one who is quiet and sheds tear for a moment, and then picks up her sword and fights again..

Pujaan Malaya ??

I've been a great fan of tis song las year - the song was cachy & cute! Haha! And the lyrics - i lurrve it! Fabs! =D
Enjoy.. =)

pujaan malaya
kau pujaan
pujaan. .

hati
dihantu bayanganmu
rindu
termimpi tiap waktu
oh oh!

cinta
bercampur curiga
kerna
kau satu-satunya
Pujaan Malaya

hei sayangku
akulah pemujamu
sampai bila bila
cintaku kan berbunga

(ai yayay)

tiada
apa dapat menghalang
tiada
kau aku gila bayang
tiada
cintamu ku tak senang
cemburu
resahku tak menentu
dirimu
segalanya sempurna
oh kanda
sungguh ak tergoda
pujaan malaya

this aint no lie
hari ke hari ku ternanti-nanti
cintamu tidak terbanding
nyata tiada setanding
walau ku rentas benua
terbentang luas angkasa
tak seluas cintaku
come on my baby
lets get it on

terbang
cintamu buatku layang
renyuk
resah bila kau pujuk
mama
bilang jangan ku percaya
LELAKI
AKAN MEMUJA HANYA PADA MULANYA

nasib kita
bukan semua sama
tapi ku kan sedia
agar tak merana

tiada
apa dapat menghalang
tiada
kau aku gila bayang
tiada
cintamu ku tak senang
cemburu
resahku tak menentu
dirimu
segalanya sempurnya
oh kanda
kau pujaan malaya

cemburu
ai yai yai yai
resahku tak menentu
dirimu
pujaan malaya
sungguh ku tergoda
bahagia

Twenty Eleventh Resolution Can U Achieve It

Ouh selamatlaa sudah masok ke Tahun 2011. Alhamdulillah, masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas untuk merasai kehidupan di Tahun Baru (setelah dua kali - Tahun Baru 1432H dan Tahun Baru 2011). Doa semoga hidup sentiasa diberkati & dilindungi oleh Allah S.W.T dan dikurniakan tubuh badan yg sihat & akal minda yg cerdas sentiasa. AMIN.

OKie. So, azam tahun baru?? erm erm. mcm entri sblm nie, x terpiki lg azam yg btl2 nk achieve. tp sblm tahun bru tue, ak da ltk azam tahun baru adalah tuk menjadi MALAS! huu bkn malas yg -ve, tp malas yg +VE! hanya ak dan org2 tertentu shj tau ap mksd MALAS +VE tue =) sb taun lepas telalu rajen sgt smpy diri snrik tension yg teramat sb benda2 remeh - pasni, nk pastikan xdek daa benda2 tue =D

Azam yg kali nie PASTI nk wat, ialah DIET! haha. Ad org tue kata yg ak xkn pndy2 kurus pny, mmg begitu laa tue smpy ke tua. hahaha. tlg sket ok. USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN ape. haha =p

Teraseee sgt laa x sht sekiranya x DIET. serius, klu ak da buhsan mmg x dulik, tp skg kene SERIUS DIET. haha =p

tapiiii kan... sejak semalam (1hb Jan 2011) , plan diet hancusss kot .. d sebabkan berikut :

variety bucket yg menggode okie. huu

dua hari berturut2 okie. pada 31dec 2010, dan pada 1jan 2011.

hoho. caneee nk diet neh! haha.

exercise? uh ampeh. ujan memanjang tiap kali mjelang petang - abis taman pn basah. xdek mud nk g tmn. alamatnyee, exercise kt katil (cum tidok!) sguh merosakkan diet tol laaa. ngunguu~~

tp xper.. itu azam kan kan kan? tuk satu tahun kan kan kan? so byk mase lg. . maka dgn itu, akan ku usahaaaakan =p

dgn cara, pertama skaly - kurgkan makan nasik! =p dlm ms sebulan nk pastikan 2kg trun! hheeee AMIN2.

disiplin kene kuat . ahax!

oke2. ad lg azam yg ak da tpiki kn. . tp azam tue xtaw n x pasti dapat ke x d laksanakan. .

sokongan itu kurang. . mampukah??

okie laa korunk! Happy New Year & May ALLAH S.W.T bless ya all alwiz! =)

Happy New Year 2011 everyone , wish everyone all the best & in a good health!
from Leesya & Me!

Bila Jodoh Itu Ketentuan Tuhan. *SMILE*

Tiga hari sblm new year 2011 :

At Samo's cafe, 4'oclock in the evening :
Miss J : Aerna, what's ur new year resolution? tis year pny resolution already achieved kaa?
Me : Dunno, dun have any. haha!
Miss L : U shud have one, my dear. at least 1. . Me : *smile* erm. . really miss?
Miss J : Ko ada boifwen ka?
Me : *lowered my eyes* (and lowered my voice) tedaaa la miss J. .
Miss J : Aik? Knp?
Me : bkin tmbh masalah seja tue. *senyum lg*
Miss J : ko penah heartbreak ka nie? smpy bunyi mcm kecewaa gilaa nie. .?
Me : *LOL* eh tia laa.. x penah lgsg pn. . bcinta pn x. . (kasi kicik lg tue sound haha)
Miss J : if u want to get married, not too early, around mid-30s is okay . Me : I planned when am 40's *i smiled - satisfied wf my answer*
Miss J : Eh tue lamaa sgt tue. around 30-35 is okay. mcm kami pn kawen umo 30-ers.
Me : *smile* sy. . . erm. . xbrp. . erm. . cemanaa ar, erm if ad jodoh adaa la, means, klu jodoh da smpy awl, i wont refuse la, tp slagi blm ad tue, let it be.. sng cita , im single but not looking laa Miss J. . =) *dalam hati kata beserah pd Tuhan*
Miss L : yes, it's good, she's just nice - a conventional type of girl . it's good.
Me : No larr miss L. . *smile*
Miss L : no dear , its true. Nothing wrong wif it. Ppl nowadays ony looking at the outside - when u want to find somewan, look at here *her fingers pointing at her heart* . for example, dot dot do. . .
Me : *smile sudey* *dalam hati - heartless.*


Dua hari sblm new year 2011 :
Kt Gtalk :

Boy A : Eh, skg nie ramay member kawen senyap2 kan? ko bile lg?
Me : Huu. taw xper. mmg ramay dok nikah senyap2, nsb bek kate nikah, klu majlis pn senyap2 taktaw laa ak.
Boy A : Tue laa.. member ko sapee lg dok nikah senyap2? dak UTP kew? Me : ramayy laa. ad je y ko x kenal. senior kte dak chemist pn ade. nk tgu ak, lameee lg kot. . calon xdek, fulus xde, perancangan lagii xdek. .
Boy A : Oh. . Eh klu2 ko x kawen lagii smpy umo 30 ke, ko carik ak je k. klu takat kawen, ak ponk boley.
Me : *dlm ati da kate gilee mamat nie* ko igt nie kawen maen2 kew? ko nk jd pengantin koboi ke ape?
Boy A : Pengantin koboi tue cane?
Me : Isk2. Pengantin ala2 pak sanggup. . ko nie sebok tny ak nie asal? nak kawen da ke?
Boy A : ala. ak memang nak kawen awal, dlm 26 ke , 27 ke. .tp serius nie, klu dalam umo 30 ke 40 ke nt, ko xdek sape2, ko carik ak je k. x salah kn ak nk tlg kawan.. .
Me : *zzzzzz xfhm ak mamat nie*... nk soh ak bemadu mtk maaf - tp klu time tue ko x kawen lg, mgkin akan d pertimbangkan! uh! *igt kawen bendeee maen kee?grrrr*

10 minit sblm new year 2011 :
Kt Gtalk

Girl A: Far katne? sihat?
Me : Sihat, Alhamdulillah. U sht?
Girl A : ntah lah. .
Me : *mst de pape nie* knp U? ade prob ke?
Girl A : tah laa far. .
Me : tunang sihat ? *ak men tebak je*
Girl A: huu tue laa de.. x taw. .
Me : Ad mslh ke U?
Girl A : Tunang nk mtk putus, tp I xnk. .
Me : Pe mslh de U?
Girl A : Tunang I bla bla bla bla. .
Me : erm . . *geram sebentar* sabar U, sabar. . ..... dan bla bla bla. .

Story Behind the Conversation :

All this happens b4 2011 comes. . When people asked bout my status, they just dont believe. I dont know why. But well , I am SINGLE but NOT LOOKING. =) I had enuf problem wf me. and somehow, my heart is locked hard as it difficult to unlock by most of ppl - it needs special key =) But i dont have to worry as long as my mum did not say anythin bout it! haha. keneee paksee kawen lg terok okie?! mcm kakak yg ak kenal satu tue, nk sambuung blajaa g pHd pn parents x bg - risau anak de x kawen2 lg. huu haaa Thank GOD my mum is kewl! hee
Im ambitious - I have desired on my own, so marriage wasnt somethin on my priorities list! haha kakak tue ckp, aer, skg umo ko masih muda, tgu nt da naek umo 26, 27 komfem berabis nk mencarik. .*dan ak cam biasa- geleng2 x stuju*

idop bujang x abis njoy lg, xkn nk kena ikat awal2. x best ok!

heartbreak sb break couple?? SUMPAH x pernah! haha. ap barang heartbreak sb kene dumped? stupid lorr. haha sorry for those yg terase - tp mmg ak x puas hati , sapee soh becinte separuh nak matii - cinte manusia bkn hakiki- cinte kt ALLAH kekal abadi - itu yg dorg patut igt salu. bg sket2 da la, nt xde la kecewa sgt.

sb sy nerd (kunu') dlu waktu blaja. .

sy kaki buku (kunu') dlu waktu blaja. .

sy x pandang lelaki sbg sorg yg lebih dr sorg kawan. .

sy pandang mereka sbg SETERU dlm blaja - I've always wanted to compete wf em. Dlu, bg saya, popuan samee je panday n kuat mcm lelaki. So sy nk buktikan, popuan lebeyyy panday dr lelaki! Tp itu dlu... time budak2 ingusan lg. hehe.

Masok U, xyah prove laa lebey panday ke x, buktikan yg sy layak dpt degree tue sudey . dan sy buley bejayee same spt mrk. =) dan popuan jg boley =D klu x, manee la cik fiza kte ley jd engineer bjayee kt sony nun! hee (kan fiza kan? hee)

(SELINGAN) sbb tue klu my kidz x blaja betul2, buat ak marah sesangat. x smpy stendet lgsung. cemana nk maju, klu camni smpy ble2 pn kaum hawa jg yg mendahului carta! huu

Bagi mereka yg kenal rapat dgn sy - saya FOBIA. dgn apa? biarlah kami2 sja yg taw.

mgkin dosa bg saya, tp saya kurang percaya pada institusi perkahwinan - atau lagi sng, sy kurang percaya pada kaum ADAM!

Sb tue, bla my sis try tuk matchmade kn dgn mber2 laki dia, ak terus melenting - prasaan benci tba2 hadir. Sy lebih bersenang berkawan dgn kaum ADAM - kdg2 telebey smpy dorg gelar sy SAMSENG! Kasar sgt kowt. huu x kesah, begurau x kesah. Tp klu prasaan laen hadir dlm frenship ktorg, mintak maaf, SAYA AUTOMATIK akan BENCI. Bkn slh kaum ADAM tue, salah ak snrik. FOBIA dgn sekeliling.

Tgk laa mcm story ke3 td. . Tue baru kenal 3 bulan trus tunang - pastu? berubah hati & nk mtk putus? yelaa. kaum ADAM x rugi, yg tanggung malu, kaum HAWA!

For story 2 : Marriage is not as simple as u say it - it needs both understanding & willing from both sides. and it takes forever. sape nak kawen hny setahun pastu cerai kan?? Nak madu laaaagi laa, unless he's millionaire - without love ponk i snggup okie. *kalau. .alasan semate okie*

dan i have my negative and bad side - more than a good side. Tp xyah gtaw la, if ada jodoh nt, dan skiranya jodoh tue smpy lg awal dr target umo nk kawen - means my heart has been unlocked - and he's my special key =) *susah kot nk dpt. hahaha. *

dan kalau sy jmp dia, xpyh tunang - ikat tali terus =) tunang itu risiko ! =D

Reminiscense of Memories Twenty Tenth - Day 5

I am sabahan, but never been really explore Sabah that well. When I was a little, all I remember is being in Kundasang, and Sepilok. Never been into a trip – any school trip involving camping or whatsoever unless it was around papar or kk. Huu~! And now, I had my chance went to Tenom, Ranau, and even Keningau. Apart from that?? Sorry, but I am no good Sabahan =)
Let's scroll some pix. .

Tenom's. .

kundasang's..

inanam's. .

They said pictures worth thousand words. . And i bet it's true =)) . . Memories. . They are really somethings. . ^^

Saket Okie.

skg ibu jari ak da jadi numb a bit. it hurts.

ketulahan. padan muka.

yesterday g isik minyak kt petronas tg. aru nun, dan tym tue tgh ujan, mama soh amek payong tuk payongkan kat area tpt minyak tue tym mama sdg mem-pam . pastu, da abis, ak tutup payong and letak kt seat blkg, then ttp pintu.

tp pastu, pk blk, mst mama bsing sb payong tue basah, pastu bkk blk pintu, then tolak payung tue cepat2 g kt area bawah seat, tp degil tol payong tue. nak juga dua tiga kali bukak ttup pintu blkg tue, n tym tue mama x pasan.

nak buat cepat2 sb mama blk2 toleh kt blkg, tp x pasan ap y ak buat , las2 sb nk cepat, ak tutup pintu blkg keta & tap!!!!!

saketnyaaaaa ibu jariiiiiiiii.. pesalll laa bengong sgt ko neh far. bley2 x pasan ak dok pgg tpt penutup pintu tue - saket okie. sesangaattt la saket. smpy skg.

nie la nie, tulah!

nk tapok dr mama kono, skg kn da kena. padan muka ko far. .!

tp serius, saket! huuu nguuu....

- chow bw hati yg lara -

Reminiscense of Memories Twenty Tenth - Day 4

we managed to moved from Sembulan to Kepayan. We have house in Papar, but due to the jammed traffic that are so unavoidable every morning from Papar to KK, and after both of my grandparents passed away, my mom decided to stay in KK. They (my fams) lived in KK for almost three years now, and I just become KK person for only a year? (a year and 2 months old) already . by that, CONGRATULATIONS to me! yahuuu!~ =p pathetic, i know.

home sweet home ~ currently tis is our paradise =)

haha. before, when people asked me bout KK, i said I know where CP is. Ouh, I know Wisma Merdeka too, erm, Karamunsing? erm. . ouh I know Segama n Sinsuran. Okay2. I know only City Area. huuu..

and tis is wer we lived - apartment wf quiet and peaceful environment

But when first 1Borneo was build , they asked me - Have u been to 1Borneo? How was it look like? Couz by that time, 1B was sooooo popular (maybe) becaus of its one of the largest shopping mall in Sabah ( and lotsa facilities - like hotel was build nearby, or should i said, interconnecting??)

Well, whatever. I dont know a crap! Not my fault - I havent got back home for almost 3 years - busy wif my UTP tings - and okay, i save money - the flight ticket. JPA spons me, and I dont want to waste my scholar for unnecessary tings. erm. . I mean home is important - but, what's the use if u goin to go back later oso after u graduated? Patients - my inspiration. The good things comes later after bad things =)

Haha. Try to put a blame to someone else. haha. pathetic laa far!!! =p haha.

okay2. my first step to 1B! when i came home after graduated - and hanging out wf meryl & jos & andy - they even bring me to Karambunai - jalan2 explore the place i'v never been b4, and photographing session by Jos.. huuu Memories, they are something. .

some of the photoshoot by Jos. Thanks pal =) crazy posed - i know, but tis is real me , a month b4 i start my job's world =)

But day flies by, months gone by and a year has passed - I know a bit of area not only in KK, but spread to, erm. . hahaha. Penampang, Bukit Padang , Kolombong , Likas & way to Menggatal, Sepanggar & Karambunai! haha. I can drive to these places ody. Haha. Funny! =p but that was achievement to me! ngeee say whatever. haha ^^