Reminiscense of Memories Twenty Tenth - Day 3

I spend my turning 24^th twice! On the 31^st, during my bday, my family bring my 2 ½ year old niece Leeya to pick me up from Tenom – it was a surprise, I never knew she’s coming. And since I was too tired from Tenom trip, and caught wf a flu – my lil bro asked me to get a short sleep while he cooked something for dinner. And just for awhile, he wakes me up, and I was actually refused to get up since I really need the sleep. But he’s babbling and I hate it, and wif little annoyed I get up and look upon the table, but nothing’s there! I almost want to shout at him for main2 again that time and he asked me to go to living room, and there they were – a cake & leeya! Cis! He played me. Huuu. My 1^st cake after I graduated.

haaa.. she's the one - 3 years old Leeya

And then my kidz – they did some surprised during IPC on the 2^nd of Aug (wic is on Monday – 2 days after my bday) .

Earlier bfore the IPC, there’s an incident of elevator and I caught them in the Control Room of KWSP management. – they were caught up in the elevator for the false alarm to firebridget in the elevator. I was shocked. They said it wasn’t their fault, and they said the elevator was began to alarmed when they enter at the first place, and being unconscious on the importance & consequences of that, they got caught by the authority. Unaware and for the first time, I believe them. It’s just the instinct. For believing in them.

No wonder Dausi , Khamarul & Helmy didn’t listen to me when I ask them to go to 3A02 for prize giving ceremony. .

No wonder out of 31 mentees (at that particular time), only few are at the lab for IPC at 1pm. .

I asked them. . Where's the rest?? They just simply shrugged.

I was slightly upset and irritated back then.

Suddenly, Evan comes from next lab, " miss ,dorang gado miss!" . like i would believed that ? and moreover, like i would care after they didnt listen to meee?? and my reply? "bhaa, biar la dorg gado. bagus thu utk masa depan kmu. amalkan la salu.." i nag - and i annoyed.

In anytime, i felt like wants to go out from the room and cancelled the IPC, but then, most of them comin out from lab next door - singing birthday song. . huh. ! kidz, they are something. . nguu...

and this pix i stoled from Razak's album. It was this time they bring in the cake. Yem - flavor. yummy ! =) the one holding the cake? Melvin.

I have one for my 24^th at home, but the pix are censored, so, no need laa o =p heee

They give me surprised that i didnt ask for any, and Im thankful. May GOD bless you everyone - my fams & my kidz . AMIN

Reminiscense of Memories Twenty Tenth - Day 2

· My first responsibility as a mentor. I was scared at first. How will these kids be? How can I shape them? How can I help them?? And to be a mentor, I have to be a role model, a good one. But, can I?? I keep questioning myself capability and always be careful with everything I’ve said and done. Thinking bout how I see the current senior students makes me more careful, cause I don’t want them to ended like their senior. And I made my own rules. Be my own self. A perfectionist. 13 mentees – and Alhamdulillah, I can still handle. But by then, my mentees increased to 32, and currently, 26 active mentees. Currently the largest amount of DKE students in history. It wasn’t an easy task. With me being me, it wasn’t easy.

People around me said im too dedicated to my work.

Just let them grow up, Aerna! Don’t spoil them too much by doing much favor to them! Don’t control them, just let them be!

I hate when they criticized me that way – as if, I am . . erm. Yeah whatever. Im just being me, and I think I hate that part of me.

And surprisingly, while am doing my best taking a good care of them, I never fall sick for a long time – I used to have flu or fever twice a year, and honestly speaking, I almost had one during Tenom trip, but luckily it was on weekend, and when I get back to work, I am 100% recover! It was all because of them – they are my inner strength. Look, I’m not kissing anyone ass, but this was it.

If they feel like giving up, I feel twice more than that. And for that, I tried to be firm, and I think now its time for me to giving up – for good. Im just going to watch them learn, and grown up handling such things. Am I capable of that? Standing at one corner and just watch them like TV programme??

- Wallahualam -

Reminiscense of Memories Twenty Tenth - Day 1

In just few more days, Goodbye 2010 & Hello 2011!! Huuu

I can feel that times fly really fast tis time. . uyooo!!

And 2010 surely leaves lotsa memory. . ngaaa~~

Personal achievement? Yet none achieve so far. Nguu nguu. .

Career? Nah. . job? Huuu personally, I managed to be honoured wif 2 awards! Huuu for Anugerah Pensyarah Paling Tegas during Teacher’s Day by UPP, and Anugerah Mentor Terbaik by Komiti Mentor Mentee. Huu. .

Erm erm.

From this day until 31st of Dec, I'll be posting each and every memory that 2010 create within me lifes. . And I'll start with this :

=*D

*shy shy cat mode*

· The craziest things I’v done for my 24^th years of living is making confession to my crush from highschool through FB! Haha. I’v meets him in FB through few mutual friends and directly adds him as a friend! Ngaaa. . I know he has steady girlfriend, and I don’t know whats gotten into me, and from where I have the guts, but , I manage to confess to him, and his reaction? ? Haha. He was surprised, but he was pleased (glad??) to know that. Haha. I was actually quiet doubt to tell him, for which i am afraid that we might ended up awkward. But he wassss cool! That's why I like him =P (excuses!! haha) Haha. anyway, we managed to remain as a friend looking forward to meet him soon next year. And seriously after that, the crush feelings?? GONE! Forever! I am not dissapointing for my confession since I didnot expect anything from him. I just want to b honest wif my own feelings - and i dont want to be bond wf unsure feelings ting. haha. Ouh yes, I am reallllyy GLADDDD for myself!! because now my heart (love for human being) who keep for only him, is freee for now! Funny how i can be heartless agen! haha but I loike itt =p I really AM! ^_^"

Ahah =P but his names will still imprints on my email username =) fa_CHEN! Well, for all this times my ID has becomes an issues for people who heard it and start questioning – are u Chinese? Hahah. oh yes, he’s Chinese ! and am looking forward 4 our reunion during Chinese New Year 2011 at his house . keke. =P Now it’s revealed! The name behind my yahoo ID & gmail ID! Kekeke

I'll post more memories later =D

p/s YOU!! yes YOU! Dont laugh at me! ahax =p

Miawu?

binatang yg ak paleng benci (x suka??) adalah kucing.. yes, selepas piggies! yikes. .!

why? ponk xtaw. geli, and x suka bla dia dtg dkt. . samada nk bemanje atau nk mtk makan. . eii. .
lagi x suka klu time org tgh mkn sesebok je dtg melompat atas meja. . biadap! huuu (wajar x ckp biadap kt kucing?? binatang kot?? )

whatever la. bla dok dtg dekat gesel2 kt kaki, eiii geli!! serius. . xley nk dekat lgsung. . klu ad kucing dok lalu tepi buat bodo je x kaco org xper, i oke. tapi klu tbe2 lalu kt tepi, suddenly follow dr belakang, eiii serius nak lariiii!! huuu x suke!!

org kate, kucing tue binatang kesayangan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. . xelok jahat dgn kucing. .
tp itu ak taw laaa... tp, klu da x ske, xkn nk pakse kot. at least ak x dera kucing. . kucing yg dera ak! (dera jiwa rageee ok??) huu. .

eiii. . dlu ak ske lax maen2 ng kucing, tp xtaw ble start, tp asenye tym masok mrsm da parah fobia kucing ku. . smpy dkt dewan makan terpelanting seme nasik n lauk dalam tray ak gara2 melompat lari dari kucing yg ... (biadap!) huhu.. sanggup xnk makan da pastu. . huuu

sampay kt utp pn camtu. . kesian member2 yg tepaksa halang kucing dr dtg dekat ketika makan. . eii, sb tue ak x bape suke makan kt cafe. belambakk kucing! yikes!

horror plak tbe2 dtg, sewaktu final year ak, which is july 08/Jun2009! rumet ak belaaa kucing! nguuuu.. time tue mmg ngis x belaguu laa ak. . dok ngadu2 kat member2 rapat pasal nate tue. . huuu.. x ske! mmg la bulu de putih cantek, kucing siam kot. .tp, eii kuat mengejar org. . x ske! nak g toilet pn kene kejarrr... kn g dapor pn kene kejarrr.. serius time tue tensionnn gilerr sb nate tue je.

rumet yg jg kawan rapat , mmg da taw da yg ak x ske kucing, tp sblm tue dia da mtk permission daaa nk bela kucing, dgn syarat, kucing tue letak luar bilik. . pk pny pk, mmg diasgree, tp sb kawan kan, xkn la nk pentingkan diri sendiri, nak x nk, agree je la, as long as x kaco masok bilik. .

tp probnye, ak nie jenis berjaga dr tghmalam smpy ke subuh, pastu trus g klas, sb class salu seawal jam 8pg. . mslhnya, nate tue d biarkan d luar bilik selepas tghmalam. . tpksa kejutkan jiran2 bilik sebelah (eena lalink & zz) x ponk kejutkan rumet tuk pegang kucing tue sb ak nk mandi laaa , nk maye subuh. . serius stresss since kucing tue dtg kt dlm idop ktorg. . stress sb tpaksa sshkn kawan2 tiap kali ak nk kuar mandi ke, makan ke, eii mcm2 laa. . smpy satu tahap tue, ak sggup tdo umah kawan kt blok lain. ayo. terok x? smpy jg hubungan ktorg ampir renggang gara2 tue jew. .

tapi kini kucing tue da mati da, dia bunuh diri. . kesian. . bkn kesian kt kucing tue, tp kesian kt rumet. . de plan nk bawak blk miri nate tue, tp kena tgu sebulan dlu baru ley transfer g miri. . byk prosedur d migresen. tpksa la nate tue d pegang oleh member de y beminat nk jaga jg. . tp x smpy smgu, dgr brita kucing tue terjun dari umah member c rumet nie. . isk2. . ini bkn percubaan pertama de. .

sb dlu pn dia penah terjun dr tgkat umah ktorang. . time tue ktorg dok level 3, naseb bek x tgi, xdek la cedera mana2 y terok. . nie klu x silap level 5 kot. . bgnn tinggi ok. isk2. percubaan pertama gagal, percubaan kedua, betul2 berjaya . . hish2. . xtaw la.

erm. erm. in short, sy x suke kucing! org yg sengaja nk kenakan sy ng kucing, adalah golongan org2 yg membencikan!

tapi sy sayang yg ini. . =)

petanda 7 hari?

bawah mata kanan asek bergerak-gerak sejak semenjak dua menjak nie. . kenapa yaa??
gusi lak rasa ngilu semacam. . bila bersuara jew confirm ngilu datang menyengat..
pastu sejak semenjak dua hari lepas, tidur asek mimpi yg bukan-bukan . .

• mimpi nenek tua yg menakutkan laa...
• mimpi kena langgar bontot kete laa pastu plat keta patah & tercabut laa..
• mimpi g buat laporan polis kat bandaran laaa
• mimpi plat kete org tue xxx1 x hengat laa..

dan disebabkan mimpi-mimpi itulah aku terlewat jaga sampy jam 6.30pg. . tue pn ssh nk bgkit. . mengenangkan nk jaga exam pg nie. . . subuh jgn ckp la, mmg confirm burn . . da tambah satu dosa lg. . T_T

semalam g amek mama dkt KKIA (naseb bek dekat dgn umah) . . tapi sblm tue amek abg dkt *city. huhu.. tgh mlm driving mmg amat mantok, dan x d temani adik bgsu - dgn sikap ak suke mengelamun time driving - mmg bahaya! huu tp berdoa jg laa. huhuh aherny smpy jg ke umah pas amek mama. .

adalah agak sejam tgu mama kt apot - abg kate nk banje kfc, nie da ddk kt kfc nie, tba2 xley lax , sb dorg da nk tutup. munyit! kempunan lg. . mau xmau, mcD jg la jawabnya. .

dlm tgh2 mlm camtu, mkn berat2 camtu, komfem berat badan berkilo2 naekny! maka ketawa n gembiralaa c kawan. munyit! hish

in short, semalam jam 2 baru start lelap balek. . huu

moral of the story : I X CKUP TIDO! huu X__X

twenty tenth.

azam baru : nekad nak jadi malas!

p/s fight against mother nature is begin.

Hope u'l read tis.

i cant decide things, so i called her.
i texted her.
and luckily she responded. .
yet i hadnt notice things. silly me. .

then she fb-mailing me. .
she explained things. . and suddenly asked : ' why i wrote wif much hatred & anger?' bcoz i think she's uncomfortable reading tis page. sorry fwen for that.

i have nothing to explain, and if u read tis, i did post regarding tis matter not long time before u asked me those question : Hey! That's Faking!

I didnt asked for u to understand, its okay. And if u still uncomfortable, am sorry. =) seriously.

and tis time, i really wrote tis post for u fwen.

p/s : u know i love our fwenship didnt u? =) peace buddy! ^^