Whatever u called this

i feel like wanna scream !

i dont know what to do in my life again ! i am totally changing by environment.

it's not that i dont like my lifestyle now, but gradually i am getting TIRED (BORED) of this lifestyle..

wake up early in the morning, go to work - lecture, mentoring, admin-ing, meeting , getting scold everytime  for not catching up with the target and all , get tense up then.. - off to work, taking shower , watching series or fb online , or hang out with friends until late at night, then star back the routine as usual.

it's not that I m not grateful, but indeed, i feel too slow and my mind and soul not so much developed ! i mean, i want to do something else !

i want to do things i would like to do, like joining dancing classes after work, or having learn korean during the weekend or after work !

afterall, all i need is to b a passive individu, i want to be on the 'learner's side' , not on the 'teaching side'.

i missed all those stuff. studying, and exam !

and bcoz of my ptptn, i got stucked. :(

aaaaaaaaaaaaa.. okay3. no time for emo. but am getting tired of this lifestyle ! :[

Arrgh?

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!

i have something to tell, but.. i tink it will take some times to jot it down here. however, i'll see u put more in my next entry !

How Can Your Face be different??

okay. I cant resist from updating this, eventhough im in the middle of finishing my graph for SISE IT audit. Anyway, I am currently found myself attached to make up and any other accessories. So, let's check, what make up can do to my face? =D

just right before put any make up on (ignore on how the shawl looks like)

just right after put make up on (again, ignore the shawl shape)

did you actually notice any changes? because i cant ! haha ! I dont really put heavy make up on my face, since it's easy to cause the acne appear rapidly (especially on my cheeks side), and yes, i dont wear blusher here. hehe ! Well, my lips are properly taken care of the rm3 lipstic and rm29.90 lipgloss. haha ! 

btw, i tried to shape my eyebrow so that it wont go messy - using brush, mascara and eyeliner, but seems there is no difference huh? 

my eyeshadow (silky girl) not really obvious in this pics since i matched the color with the shawl, and just basically put near the edge of the eyelids, put some mascara on, and , basically, the whole make up (the acne and the scars (due to acne) was properly covered by Silky Girl Magic BB Powder Foundation and Ivy Mutiara compact powder, what's left uncovered is the tahi lalat.  haha ! 

precious huh? =D *sharifah aini pn kalah taw*

haha ! okay, till then, take care ! =D

Work Work Work

Today would be the last day i can enjoy myself raya-ing and lepak-ing with leasure, since tomorrow i'll be starting again my 'hectic' daily routine, and this time, with a lotsa more stressful and hateful task ~!

Among of them where i almost forgot since it's raya :

• workplanner for August 2011
• CE analysis before friday (9th Sept)
• MQA Preparation - Learning portfolio and student's file registration at Registrar
• Banner for Aidilfitri festival (if possible)
• Notes for Digit
• Meeting minutes (attendance for week 9,10 and 11)
• extra class with hafiz , raimon, and ariffdin

yes. that's all for now. I need to work real hard . so, i dont think i'll updating any entry soon, since i dont think i can find the time (maybe). 

but 1 thing u should know about me, "When i bcome a lil bit crazy, i'll do whatever i wants. And by that time, try to stop me, coz u'll be totally ignore !"

Till then, take care fellow bloggers ! =) 

Hana Tajima's

recently i held a very good interest in new trend to wear hijab, look simple and nice. hehe !

and i've tried one, this afternoon after got back from fetching up aerma back at papar. 

after this can try when go to work or jalan2..hehe ! 

people says, this is the trend of Hana Tajima's. Who is she? you guys have to google up for her ! hehe. coz im not really into founder. keeke. =) but her trend of hijab is quite nice, simple and trendy compare to Yuna and Heliza Helmy. hehe ! 

ps : after this, wanna borong again all shawl that is nice and cute ! hehe . so how's peep? =D

My Achievement so far?

I was starting my job as a tutor officially on 22nd of Oct, 2009. If i am reaching the date of 22nd Oct , 2011, means I m officially served ptpl for 2 years. 

And now, seeing how my friends and utpianz ex-classmate progress, i feel a bit jealous (positive one) and saying, "how lucky they are.. they can be what they really wanna be.." 

And now, im starting to think bout my future career path.. Academic field wasnt my first priority . I was planning beforehand to continue my master oversea, but since things getting complicated, I dont think I can further my studies for the time being. In fact, I deferred my master for 1 year last year, hoping that i can go for this year, to be exact on September, but then, things really2 getting complicated, apart from financial problem. It's so hard to be selfish, but i wonder how could such person exist in this world. Exactly, the world is cruel to me. Im feeling so so so so upset regarding this matter. So, for now, bye bye Master of Control System (Eng) , bye bye University of Sheffield, bye bye UK. :(( till we meet again, i really hope real soon. 

Another thing was, I am really2 determined to be an engineer. Teaching wasnt for me. I wasnt saying teaching is bad, in fact, im being thankful to ptpl for accepting me for work. There's a pro and cons. The pros is that,

if i dont be an engineer,

• I wont meet my lovely and annoying little kids (my mentees & students)
• I wont be able to explore Sabah and managed activities
• I wont be able to understand how academic works
• I wont be able to help and take care of my fams in kk

but if i dont be a tutor,

• i would be a successfull engineer (insyaALLAH)
• i would be able to explore oversea and facing challenging working environment
• i no need to achieve the %F for my KPI (work indicator)
• i would be able to earn more , and give more
• i would be able to help my sister in Malacca with her fees

But then, who am i to fight His will. When im starting for job hunt, my friends keep on saying, " dont stop looking ! dont give up. different people has different luck. " and lots2 more. 

And recently, my uncle said, just tried for once, looking up in the website, and dont stop trying ! 

And, again, im crossing all my fingers, hoping and wishing my luck will come around this time. Dear God, do grant my prayer. Amin. 

Till then, my will : I have to be an Engineer ! and I will try not to stop looking ! AMIN AMIN AMIN ya RABBIL ALAMIN. 

Raya ke - 3

Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah the Almighty, for His blessing and love, our open house was successfully held this year.

The open house officially start at 12.30 with Hairuz and Hafiz coming. After eating and chitchatting for some times, Nody came, and not really eating since he just got back from beraya at his cousin's ouze.

Then around 2pm, Bumilah and her family comes, follow by Bu Idah and family, then Pacik Sabdin (i used to call him Abang Adin) and family. So, first time after few years back, I feel the open house raya again just like i had one when we were at home back in Papar.

Then around 3.30pm, all of them going back, then not long after, I received text from Doreen, saying that they'l pay me a visit for raya in awhile. *smile* . Then , around 4.30, Freda and Doreen & the gang (Issma, Wawan and Sharrif) came.

We chitchatting a bit, here and there, and around 5.30 they all went back. Since my open house are from 11 to 8pm, im still waiting if there's other family or friends will pay us a visit. But then, I guess that's all for our open house today. I was quiet tired, not to mention my other family members.

Million thanks to Mama (for sponsoring sayur , sotong and bhn2 for tomyam, and for rendang ayam, agar2 & custard), thanks to my lil sis Aerma Fatiemah & husbands (for lamban & sotong) , thanks to my little brother, Abang who helped with the dishes and tidy up things, and thanks to Anisahasnah (for helping bit here and there) in order to ensure the success of this event. Alhamdulillah, the open house for 2011, was successfully held.

I dint take pics though, nway, a nice memory created and tightly keep in my mind.

Last but not least, Thank You ! ^^

ps : i did invite some friends, but they just dont seem to bother to come. Not all, but few. I did invite from last year, yet, they cant come, eventhough they promised to come. Herm. I dont know if they are my fwens anymore. I should just back off. =) I dont belong to that clique. Thank you for being my friend bfore. ^^